As a single introverted woman in her 20's options in the romance department are very slim. The cliche of "there are plenty of fish in the sea" is total bullshit. My world is pretty small. Self imposed, of course. I'm also a big girl. I'm come to terms with that and embrace my body. It … Continue reading The Journey Begins
I always knew in the long run I wouldn’t matter. I wouldn’t be remembered by any of these dudes. Not in any serious sort of way. Maybe they would remember my face. Definitely my ass. Probably the wet heat of my mouth around their cock. But to have the fact confirmed is a different kind … Continue reading Fear
My previous posts were about the deep dark hole I fell in because another man broke my heart. This post is mostly for me to tell myself how proud I am of me. I’ve clawed myself mostly out of that hole. I still have my days when I start to sink a bit but most … Continue reading Crawling Out of the Hole
Sadness is an old friend of mine. Anyone who knows me or reads this knows this by now. Sadness is basically my default setting. Especially when it comes to people of the opposite sex. I'm a hopeless romantic. I attribute this fact in part to my Venus being in Libra and my family life growing … Continue reading Rock Bottom
For those who don't know, I was seeing this guy for the past few months. I don't really want to get into the details of it. Except the fact that this one was different. Or I thought it was different. But, yet, here I am again, heartbroken and alone. I want to blame myself and … Continue reading I Am Not Okay
My heart got so broken tonight I can’t even masturbate and i haven’t had an orgasm in almost a month. I’m giving up on love. I’m tired of being hurt.
I know I said I wasn’t going to be posting again but I cannot hold this in. So we all know that I like to hurt myself and make decisions they hurt me very very much. Okay so listen. I know I said I was done with Brian. And it has been mostly true. I … Continue reading Hurt Me
Before you dive into this, I’ll just tell you now it’ll be self deprecating and self loathing and long and very sad. But I also wanted to say that this blog is going to be put on a hiatus. First, things aren’t happening really or won’t be happening. Second, I’m getting the feeling some people … Continue reading The End…..?
Let me start by saying this happened back in February so, yes, I have been holding out on everyone. But also I little bit forgot that this happened. My life has been a lot lately, okay? Damn. I remembered this and thought it would be a nice surprise for anyone that actually reads this and … Continue reading Threesome
Well as expected things with my crush did not go well. I definitely feel like I messed things up like I always do. Things were fine until I did something. Not a bad something just maybe was too honest about my damage. I just felt like it was important to say it bothered me. My … Continue reading Crushed
Well guys let me tell you about my day of love because I feel like I owe you some sort of content even if it it’s fun or exciting and includes very little sex. The day started off at work. We had to work for way too long and I definitely was over it by … Continue reading Valentine’s Day 2020